I Lost My Face

  • Published on Oct 19, 2019
  • Hey, I’m Annika. And until the age of 17, I had a perfectly normal life. I was pretty, good in school and in a happy relationship with my boyfriend Lewis. Well, at least that’s what I thought.
    Because one night everything changed. I was on my way back home from ballet practise when a guy ran up to me and threw a bucket full of liquid in my face.
    At first, I thought it was a prank, but then my face started to burn more and more until I blacked out.
    When I woke up again, everything was dark. I thought the lights were off. But something was different. My whole upper body was hurting. And, when I touched my face, I couldn’t feel my eyes or nose.
    My whole face felt like an old margarita pizza and all I had left, was my mouth to breathe through.
    I felt like I was trapped in a nightmare: No light, no face. I wanted to cry, but I had no eyes. So instead, I said “Where am I?, “Where am I?”. It was hard to speak without lips.
    But fortunately, my right ear still worked, so I heard my mom when she said, “You’re alive! Oh, my love, what have they done to you?” She was crying and hugging me.
    After she calmed down, she told me that someone had thrown acid in my face, and it had burned away my eyes, my nose and lips.
    So it wasn’t a night mare. My face was really gone. But why would anyone do this to me? I’d always been a very friendly girl. And even when my classmates made fun of me, saying I wasn’t smart, I never talked back. I just don’t like conflict.
    But my anger quickly turned to shame when my boyfriend came to my hospital bed. Even though I couldn‘t see, I knew how ugly I must have looked to him.
    He asked me, “How are you?”, but it didn’t even sound like he was worried about me. I could even hear a bit of disgust in his voice. And it felt like he had only come to visit me because it was his duty as my boyfriend. Because after just a few minutes, he left again.
    I’d never felt so bad before and this time I was able to cry. I could feel that somewhere under my skin, tears were forming.
    That day, the police came to visit me. They wanted me to describe what happened. And they asked if I had any enemies or if someone had threatened me. I told them I couldn’t think of anyone.
    But 2 years earlier, one of my old classmates had threatened me, saying, “be careful or I’ll throw acid on you.” But that was 2 years ago, and I never took it seriously. That girl had been jealous of me because I was in a relationship with Lewis.
    I knew that in my city of London, acid attacks were common within the black and Muslim community. But I’m 100% white, and my parents are of Irish descent.
    After a month of investigation, the police found out what happened. They figured out that my old classmate who had threatened me 2 years before had an affair with my boyfriend Lewis behind my back. But because he didn’t want to break up with me, she paid her cousin 200 pounds to throw acid in my face. The police found the exact same acid that was thrown on me on her cousin’s clothes.
    The police also took GPS data from his phone that showed he was very close to me on the night of the accident.
    The trial went on for several months. When the cousin was asked if he wanted to apologise to me, he started crying and said he was so sorry. But you could hear in his voice that he was only acting. He came up with one excuse after the other for why he’d thrown acid on me. He even said his parents had never loved him and he needed the 200 pounds his cousin gave him to pay off his debts.
    Listening to his excuses disgusted me. And even the judge told him to shut up because no one wanted to hear his lies anymore.
    In the end, both of them got 20-year prison sentences. But to be honest, I’m not sure if that’s fair considering that they’ve ruined my face for the rest of my life. And, if they behave well in prison, they might get out much earlier.
    I recently, visited my former classmate in prison. The one who had ordered the acid attack. Of course, it was weird meeting her. I had no eyes to look at her directly. So all we could do was talk.
    I asked why she had done it and she explained that she had always envied my beauty. She said it broke her heart when me and Lewis became a couple. And the only way to take him away from me, was to destroy my beauty.
    At last, I asked her if she regretted what she had done and she immediately said yes because now she would have to “spend the best years of her life inside prison.”
    That’s when I realised that some people truly only care about themselves. She didn’t apologise or anything. She only regretted being caught for her crime.
    I got to be honest, I still sometimes get angry about what happened to me. It was such a senseless crime where everybody involved lost.
    The hardest part is that I will probably never find another boyfriend. After what happened to my face, my now ex boyfriend Lewis cut off all contact with me. And I gotta admit that this hurt even more than the acid attack.

Comments • 12 740

  • Bilal Sillah
    Bilal Sillah 18 hours ago

    Who just walks up to a person and says they're gonna throw acid on them

  • redstone 148
    redstone 148 18 hours ago

    No one deserves to lose they're face

  • FirePrincess Hino
    FirePrincess Hino 19 hours ago

    If someone throws a bucket of acid in my face I would be like the real Slenderwoman that everyone would say how's your husband Slender Man doing. I would laugh it off, cause I would ignore people that would say negative things to me.

  • Gatito Sanchez
    Gatito Sanchez 19 hours ago

    well now you can realete to whithered bonnie

  • Marlee Phipps
    Marlee Phipps 20 hours ago

    Dat mirror tho

  • Tyreese Seamore
    Tyreese Seamore 20 hours ago +1

    Is this true

  • Blake Faith
    Blake Faith 20 hours ago

    How can she read the comments if she can’t see

  • dolphinboy10
    dolphinboy10 21 hour ago

    i would punch any one who poured acid on anyones face

  • • KyurikinJyhun •
    • KyurikinJyhun • 21 hour ago

    Noone gonna talk about how the mom showed her daughter a *mirror*

  • Dustin Short
    Dustin Short 21 hour ago


  • Guilherme Nunes
    Guilherme Nunes 22 hours ago

    Am I the only one who hears she saying at 0:03 "hey, I'm a ni🅱️🅱️a"
    I really need to know

  • Unknown_ Meanings
    Unknown_ Meanings 23 hours ago

    Her name is a nigga

  • Mrzxcads123
    Mrzxcads123 23 hours ago

    *someone threw acid on your face and it burned your eyes and lips*
    Mom:*hands Daughter mirror*

  • Daniel Ganiyu
    Daniel Ganiyu 23 hours ago


  • nevy._classic 9987
    nevy._classic 9987 23 hours ago

    "I had no eyes"
    *Mom gives mirror*

  • Gabriel Vincent
    Gabriel Vincent 23 hours ago


  • N-e-k-o
    N-e-k-o 23 hours ago

    I hate your friend and that guy

  • Liongr
    Liongr Day ago


  • Alexis Flores
    Alexis Flores Day ago

    literally no one

  • Aladdin Videos ForReal

    Then how come you can see then!?!?

  • Palontras
    Palontras Day ago

    Some questions
    Who would do something like that?
    Why did her mother pass her a mirror when she can't see?
    And why was there a crying emotion when she said " I couldn't feel my eyes and I can't cry"?
    Rant over and now a new rant (PREPARE)BIG INHALE
    And btw she said " I could feel tears forming under my skin " as I was writing. AND
    Don't do it kids and sorry for the waste of space.

  • Chen Ben
    Chen Ben Day ago

    I will never IOST MY FACE

  • Jaxytube
    Jaxytube Day ago

    I feel you

  • Jaz Uchiha
    Jaz Uchiha Day ago

    Why did she hand her a mirror


    Lol who saw Aang when she was flippin throughout the channels while watching television

  • Summer Elliott
    Summer Elliott Day ago

    I saw a documentary about her on TV she is so brave

  • i’m sharting
    i’m sharting Day ago +1


  • Shonte Harbin Jr
    Shonte Harbin Jr Day ago +1

    I feel sad for you I never had that before but how you will see your kid when you don't have no eyes can you hear them or something

  • lisa casey
    lisa casey Day ago

    You could still be someone you could be a you could be a bland person I think its not funny😡😡

  • Xx Unknown xX
    Xx Unknown xX Day ago

    Who else skipped To the end to see if the thumbnail was true =P

  • C.G playz
    C.G playz Day ago

    Of course someone has a bucket of acid

  • nitro arts
    nitro arts Day ago

    Mum: yeah let's give my *BLIND* daughter a mirror to look in
    Daughter: omg I look ugly

    • nitro arts
      nitro arts Day ago

      Omg I scroll down twice and realised I copied someone without Thinking, should I delete it

  • The Drone Kid
    The Drone Kid Day ago

    How come acid is easily accessible in London?

  • Joey Rodriguez
    Joey Rodriguez Day ago

    mom:shows daughter her face in mirror
    daughter:has no eyes

  • Blank
    Blank Day ago

    I don't think that that's how human faces work

  • B1luee2
    B1luee2 Day ago

    "Hey!," Im anigga

  • Danny Campbell
    Danny Campbell Day ago


  • S. Namira Nawar
    S. Namira Nawar Day ago

    You are really brave. I salute you wholeheartedly 👏👏😁😁

  • joan jiang
    joan jiang Day ago

    Is this real

  • Eddie Riley
    Eddie Riley Day ago

    I would not do inthing but say why

  • KroKo_gaming
    KroKo_gaming Day ago

    Yeah give her a mirror u devil

  • GamingwithUrban
    GamingwithUrban Day ago

    Wait it sounded like she said the n word at the start of the video

  • Lis Wright
    Lis Wright Day ago

    It looks like your skin is disappear

  • Kenan Ulusoy
    Kenan Ulusoy Day ago

    My dad get a brain Blades and he is alive and Happy he got a metal on him brain

  • Heide Griest
    Heide Griest Day ago

    I would make a little group of people who has that happened to them or the people who are blind

  • [ banned from making videos FOR NO REASON ]

    If you can t see how the heck you uploaded this video

  • Those Two Minecraft Players

    Bf: came to visit
    Fuck he ve been gentle to u even when u were in this situation

  • LIWA ™
    LIWA ™ Day ago

    I lost half of my face from an explosion but i love myself and i look beutiful in my eyes

  • ??? Official YouTube

    2019: i lost my fase
    2020: I lost my body

  • Peppa Pig
    Peppa Pig Day ago

    I was pretty...
    Haha can’t relate

  • Fizdy XD
    Fizdy XD Day ago

    Im so sorry that what what happened to you

  • josie spinale
    josie spinale Day ago

    everyone is talking about the mirror, but i hate how the girl didn’t get the same punishment as annika did. i would’ve said to the judge “give THEM acid to the face” and let them live their lives

  • Squidward The Skinny Legend

    Excuse me! I'm Muslim and white! THAT IS OFFENCIVE!

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  • Voja Simić
    Voja Simić Day ago

    Tbh If I lose my face I will kill myself

  • Deeva's Panda Corn Land

    I love in England and I'm terrified now. Luckily in Reading, not London.

  • Debra Young
    Debra Young Day ago

    I would feel like I didn’t even exist any more

  • Emily Jordan
    Emily Jordan Day ago

    This is not really rill

  • rayna Mishra
    rayna Mishra Day ago +1

    It is sad but I am the boss no matter what happens just be happy and stop lieing I know you have eyes nose and you are fine oh this child gave me a moving book I can write in it
    With only touchying it
    _ einstine

  • rayna Mishra
    rayna Mishra Day ago +1

    You're dating now with a dog 😂