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  • Kelsey Reese
    Kelsey Reese 47 minutes ago

    My mom had 3 miscarriages before she had me and my 2 siblings!! Keep having hope and don’t give up! Stay strong Dezi!! ❤️

  • D. Z.
    D. Z. Hour ago

    I’m so so so sooooo proud of you for making this video. You’re stronger than you think, you really are. Give it two years.... idk why but that number just came to my mind and heart. And my heart is telling me I should tell you this. You’ll be blessed just live life with faith

  • Josefina Terrones

    You are in my prayers! 🙏🏾 love you girl! ❤️

  • Dana Matar
    Dana Matar 2 hours ago

    Desi, go to the nearest pranic healing center and you can get healed in order for you to get pregnant

  • Marelia Policroniades
    Marelia Policroniades 2 hours ago

    You are such an incredible woman desi and this is one of the many reasons why I look up to you. You and Steven will be in my prayers and i hope you keep that gorgeous smile on your face. Much love xo

  • Jessica Romero
    Jessica Romero 3 hours ago

    Thank you for sharing this, I know it was hard and it's a subject that a lot of woman dont want to speak out about. Just know that you are not alone and with faith in God it will happen for you guys. Stay strong and positive beautiful.

  • Lilylights Music
    Lilylights Music 3 hours ago

    May God grant you this desire in Jesus name amen! You will cry tears of joy soon! It will happen! Keep believing

  • into the mystic
    into the mystic 4 hours ago

    My close friend tried for years as well. She finally decided to do IVF after she was told she probably could not get pregnant naturally due to a medical condition. She found out she was pregnant a week before that appointment. Now she has 2 beautiful children. Stay strong!!!

  • BriasKloset by Bria Van Cooten

    💙💙💙

  • Johanna Figueroa
    Johanna Figueroa 4 hours ago

    Desi, i’m here crying with you. this is one of my biggest fears of having trouble getting pregnant or just not being able to get pregnant. i’ve had problems with my periods and what not so i had an ultrasound done and the doctor i went to said that i have “signs” of pcos but they won’t know for sure until i try to get pregnant so ever since then i kinda freak out because there’s a chance i won’t be a mom. and that’s something i’ve been wanting to be since i was small. Desi, you’re not alone. i know i’ve never been through a miscarriage but there are women who have and it’s okay. I know one day, you’ll be making a video jumping up and down letting us know you’re pregnant. I know it, just don’t lose faith. 😘💙

  • Destiny Lee
    Destiny Lee 4 hours ago

    You’re so strong for making this video. I had a miscarriage 2 years ago, and watching this made me feel like I wasn’t so alone. Everything happens for a reason, and when the time is right I hope you and Steven can have a beautiful family. Sending love your way 💕

  • Dani
    Dani 6 hours ago

    Thank you for sharing such a big part of your life with us. My heart is breaking for you right now, but I am so hopeful at the same time because I know some day this will happen for you. As hard as it may be, never lose faith. My husband and I had issues conceiving as well. My issue was that I wasnt ovulating. I did some research and learned that inositol supplements can help with fertility and ovulation. I don't know if it was the inositol or it was just our time, but within a couple months my blood work showed that I was ovulating! I know every body is different so what worked for me may not work for others but I just thought I would offer up the suggestion if anyone else is having similar issues 💕

  • Kimberly Kelly
    Kimberly Kelly 7 hours ago

    I’m not really a sensitive person, but this made me ball my eyes out. Keep your head up Desi ❤️ We love you

  • Brendajazmin
    Brendajazmin 8 hours ago

    ❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • kyla P
    kyla P 8 hours ago

    I know this was hard to experience. I'm so sorry about all of it! I wish you the best 😘

  • Hi Bich
    Hi Bich 9 hours ago

    Heartbreaking 💔

  • TheAPetra
    TheAPetra 9 hours ago

    never make any comments, but i just want to Thank you for being yourself and for sharing!

  • Ceciliah Karlsson
    Ceciliah Karlsson 11 hours ago

    Thanks for opening up about heavy stuff like this. I'm not in the same shoes as you, I dont even have a partner. In my family we have relativas, including my older sister, who have had hard times getting pregnant, some haven't got kids at all. I'm in a way mentaly prepared for the same struggles if not the possibility of not being able to get kids at all. My heart aches hearing your story, I truly believe that we all go through the things we do for a reason of some kind. I know that doesn't help really, I sen all my love to the two of you. Never stop communicate with each other and never stop feeling the feelings you have. They make you stronger even if it doesnt feel like it in the moment. I can relate to the strong feelings of wanting kids so bad. Lots and lots of love to you two!

  • Eshita Shah
    Eshita Shah 12 hours ago

    Desi I literally cried watching this and especially in the part where you inserted that vlog you recorded. I can definitely relate to the feeling of constantly thinking am I going to be able to get pregnant. I am not married yet but I am afraid because of all the things I see and thank you for sharing this video. I know and hope that you can fulfill your dreams one day ❤️❤️❤️❤️ there is so much out there and hopefully that can help you. Either way you are a beautiful person and have a beautiful family albeit not human but you have such a loving husband and family members and your pups

  • Shannon Fitzgerald
    Shannon Fitzgerald 12 hours ago

    I havent finished the video yet, and maybe you're doing this already, but have you considered going to see a therapist? Clearly talking and emoting these feelings is what you need and is cathartic. I think it could do you some wonders just to release some of these emotions and talk through them.

  • Graciela Ortiz
    Graciela Ortiz 13 hours ago

    We love you, and I can’t express to you how much you’ve touched my life and inspired me to fight through my struggles. You’re an amazing and beautiful human being

  • adenchasebrown
    adenchasebrown 13 hours ago

    Right about when you’re about to give up, that’s when miracles happen...
    You have to work the hardest on things you want the most...
    The ones who want it (getting pregnant/having kids) so badly are the ones who usually wait the longest...
    These were the things I used to tell myself when my husband and I were trying to get pregnant for many years, fastforward, we now have 3 children. Never give up on things you want the most.

  • Ashleigh Leanne
    Ashleigh Leanne 14 hours ago

    ❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • Vivir con Simplicidad
    Vivir con Simplicidad 14 hours ago

    Estarán en mis oraciones. -"el tiempo de Dios es perfecto"!!
    Thanks for sharing this with us!

  • Claire Campbell
    Claire Campbell 14 hours ago

    I wish you both the best of luck, good things come to those who wait and the best things will come to you ❤️

  • Laiarocks
    Laiarocks 14 hours ago

    You are amazing Desi !!! Don't lose you faith :)

  • SamFun8
    SamFun8 16 hours ago +1

    Desi, please google Alisa Vitti and her book Woman Code. It teaches us women a great deal about our bodies and our hormones. It also gives great tips on how to improve your fertility. I believe these tips (that are almost all natural) would be a great supplement to your doctor's. Wishing you all the very best and sending you lots of love

  • Jen Her
    Jen Her 17 hours ago

    Thank you so much for making this video Desi. I’m currently in the same situation, and I literally cry every night afraid that I might not get to be a mom. I cried watching your video because I feel we are in the same shoe. Be brave Desi. GOD is good and he has something plan for everyone. Take it easy Desi. We love you. ❤️

  • Natalie  Layton
    Natalie Layton 17 hours ago

    Hugs. We love you Desi.

  • Xena Love
    Xena Love 17 hours ago

    Omg crying😥 love you guys so much!❤😘 My sister after 15 yrs of a beautiful marriage and trying so hard is finally pregnant❤ she is almost 40. God is good Desi and your time will be in his time and it will be the best!❤ God bless you both and may he bless you with an angel of your own❤ much love!

  • Erlinda Newell
    Erlinda Newell 18 hours ago

    I had the same issues 3 to 4 years ago and I can relate what uve been through. I had 3 miscarriages and I had been trauma shaking so bad to see any doctors because of that. I also been to fertility Doctor and they said base on the numbers.that they see...I cannot get pregnant again....I felt the whole words crashed on me. But then one friend of mine told me to take folic acid daily for months and after 2 months I have now my almost 3 year's old princess.....

  • Amanda Nicole
    Amanda Nicole 18 hours ago

    “I’m crying” comments really get to me. It’s about Desi, not you.

  • Paula Tauhiro
    Paula Tauhiro 19 hours ago

    Lots of love to both of you ❤️❤️❤️

  • Danielle Llanas
    Danielle Llanas 20 hours ago

    💛💛💛💛 My heart goes out to you and Steven. I pray that God Bless you with a child, may you find comfort in the Lord.
    I’m so sorry you have been going through this for years, I hope by doing this video you begin to heal. I will be praying for you sweet girl.

  • Manon Lagase
    Manon Lagase 20 hours ago

    Thank you for sharing this video ❤️❤️ i know it must’v been hard for you to share. Seeing this video help me a lot to think that i’m not alone in this and that we have to keep faith. 🙏🏼🙏🏼🙌🏼

  • FLdancer00
    FLdancer00 21 hour ago

    Who are the 3,000 animals who gave this a thumbs down?!?!

  • Typhlosion Blue
    Typhlosion Blue 21 hour ago

    ❤️

  • Alyssa Hernandez
    Alyssa Hernandez 22 hours ago

    Desi I love you you're so so so brave for this and I'm praying for god to give u guys a baby ! You deserve it ! You've always been My number one favorite makeup artist and this video made me just absolutely love the strong beautiful soul that u are !! THANKS for sharing love 💕💕

  • Eline Carlstad
    Eline Carlstad 23 hours ago

    You are a beautiful and strong woman desi! I pray for you! This is so important

  • Marion Kse
    Marion Kse 23 hours ago

    My parents struggle too to have kids and after many years and thanks to ART they were able to have 2 children. Don't lose hope and faith ! Whatever happen you will figure out a solution and you will raise an amazing family. I really know what you're going through because my parents taugh me their experience, it's really hard but keep believing and be positive! I'm sending all my love 😍

  • Dalari Nimitz
    Dalari Nimitz 23 hours ago

    In gods time. Prayers for you always sister❤️

  • Tess Humphreys
    Tess Humphreys Day ago

    My mum had 3 miscarriages and 11 goes at IVF and she finally had me in 2005 so don't worry you just have to keep trying and it will happen some day.

    • Tess Humphreys
      Tess Humphreys Day ago

      My sister had to be adopted because after me my mum could not have any more. I love my sister so much and it won't change

  • lalacota89
    lalacota89 Day ago

    Desi I just saw your video let me just tell you...I was in the same situation as you with the difference that I just wasn't getting pregnant I've been 8 years married I'm 29 years old and had been trying to get pregnant for 7 years with no luck! and just last year I had my little miracles boy and girl twins they are about to be 1 this year. Just know God will bless you and Steven with your baby just have faith there's a reason for everything remember los tiempos de dios son perfectos! Best wishes beautiful ❤ my prayers for you and Steven🙏

  • Beatriz Garcia
    Beatriz Garcia Day ago

    You’re so strong. Eres mi definición de una mujer fuerte y valiente. Thank you for sharing this with us. *sending many hugs*

  • Estela LV Beauty

    Don’t give up, my friend had a few miscarriages but she kept trying and now she has a beautiful daughter! .... and there is always options to make it happen... the key is to be positive even on the hardest times ... have faith!

  • Gorjess Glam
    Gorjess Glam Day ago

    Omg Desi Your so brave to speak about this subject .Throwing baby dust to you and your husband . We have similar stories it’s taking me 7 years til today . I know how you feel it’s very hard it makes you feel lost and depressed. Love you Des 💕

  • Esra Ramazan
    Esra Ramazan Day ago

    Sending so much baby dust 🧚🏼‍♀️🧚🏼‍♀️🧚🏼‍♀️🧚🏼‍♀️🧚🏼‍♀️✨✨✨✨✨✨

  • Natali Murcia
    Natali Murcia Day ago

    I been trying for my second baby too and its been hard, my doc told me a story of a close friend of him.... the couple were trying to get pregnant for 6 years and they couldn't, after 6yrs they opted for adoption instead and they did, after 6 months the lady got pregnant!
    IT WAS TOO MUCH STRESS ON THE SUBJECT.
    Let your self loose and don't overthink it, don't over plan it, don't be worry girly you WILL get pregnant♥ XOXO

  • julia albaine
    julia albaine Day ago

    I do not know if you will believe, but in Dominican Republic they made a bottle with natural ingredients that clean your system and help you get pregnant. My two nieces took the bottle, then visited a special doctor and they both got pregnant after trying for a long time. On had twins boy and the other one boy too. But not only that, without looking for more babies the one that has twins just had another boy. Also, my grandmother who is 106 years old said the we cannot allow cats, or dogs on the bed because for some people get some desease from their hair that prevent women to get pregnant. I do not know where you live, but if you want I can give more details in direct message and maybe bring you a bottle. God will give you that child that you want, do not stress out or think about. God Bless you.

  • paula sandoval
    paula sandoval Day ago

    I literally watched two minutes of this and started crying 😭i feel your pain mama . We would give anything to be mothers and start a family ❤️ god bless you we got this one day will be the best moms , remember your already a fur mama love you desi 💕

  • Riri Rains
    Riri Rains Day ago

    I’m going to pray for you everyday

  • Cass Lamarche
    Cass Lamarche Day ago +1

    I’m not crying, you’re crying !!!
    Stephens reaction in that video is amazing.
    It never gets easier to deal with a loss like that. I lost a baby at 39 weeks. I gave birth to this perfect baby girl who never got to breath her first breath. But one day, it will happen for you I am sure. All the best desi.
    Side note - I have two gorgeous boys now!

  • B
    B Day ago

    Thank you for being so open and honest with everyone and sharing your story. I hope this helps you find healing! Your a beautiful soul. Everyone I know who has had trouble getting pregnant, like myself I recommended these natural pills that I got off Amazon I know it sounds sketchy but the reviews themselves speak volumes and I got pregnant on our 2nd month on them. I have been with my husband since 2008 no protection and never got pregnant. I took these and was pregnant in 2 months. They not only help you get pregnant, they prepare your body/eggs for a healthy pregnancy! They were life changing for me and my friend who also had trouble. I’m a skeptic myself normally! You can read peoples stories and they’re moving. It’s called Fertilaid. I am taking them again myself to try to get pregnant again. I’m taking fertilaid along with ovaboost and fertilCM. Just look into it. Their found on Amazon. Hope this helps! 🙏🏻💕

  • Cecilia Robles
    Cecilia Robles Day ago

    🙏🏽

  • Beauty WithVee
    Beauty WithVee Day ago

    Love you so much Desi! Breaks my heart to see you cry 😢Gods timing is always the best and I know you both will be THE BEST parents ❤️❤️ Praying for you !!!

  • Patricia Alfaro
    Patricia Alfaro Day ago

    Omg Desi I love you! I’m new to your channel and I had no idea. The happiness in that home video was everything. You and Steven deserve that happiness so have faith in God and be patient. The universe is on your side and you will get to experience that love and happiness all over again one day. XOXOXOXO

  • Sara al-ghamdi
    Sara al-ghamdi Day ago

    I think that at some point you will have a baby don’t be sad 😭😭😭 i will pray for you to have a beautiful little baby , luv you 😫💛

  • Kaitlyn Romoser
    Kaitlyn Romoser Day ago

    we all love you so much Desi, and I'm so glad you have someone as amazing as Steven by your side.

  • shilan
    shilan Day ago

    This video really really touched me. I'm so sad and heartbroken for you. For you and anyone who struggles with this. I really hope you don't have to be sad anymore and that you'll have a family in the future, whether you become pregnant or adopt or whatever may be the right path for you. Children are a blessing and from this video I can just tell that any child would be lucky to have you as a mother and Steven as a father. You guys are already parents, you just don't have a child yet. Praying for you. Best of luck

  • Jade-Emerald Green

    My heart is truely broken listening to your story, I am so sorry this is happening to you and Steven. Your marriage is so beautiful though and it clearly has made you a closer unit. You deserve a child more than anything and I wish that for you. Sending all my love xxxxx

  • Lucy Robson
    Lucy Robson Day ago

    Desi, thank you so much for sharing your story. I cannot even begin to imagine what it feels like to go through all of this. You are so strong ❤️

  • Jeffline Joseph
    Jeffline Joseph Day ago

    In the name of Jesus, you will bear fruit. Praying for you!

  • Stella Sepassipour

    You are very strong and you have to stay strong. We support you

  • erika carrillo
    erika carrillo Day ago

    Thanks for sharing your story . I have a story as well but it’s hard to speak about . I think the best way is IVF, embryos . Surrogate is also a great option. We have so much technology out there . It is very expensive . Don’t let that hold you back . Good luck & God bless

  • Jennszblogs
    Jennszblogs Day ago

    wow desi, you got me crying like a baby over here, I’m going to pray for you and Steven have that miracle ❤️ it’ll happen soon.
    CHICKENS LETS PRAY!
    prayers always help 🐔💞

  • fashiongirl0584
    fashiongirl0584 Day ago +1

    Who downvoted this?! This was so brave and heartbreaking. I hope you get to be a mom some day Desi.

  • Chantel Ayoub
    Chantel Ayoub Day ago +1

    I LOVE YOU DESI STAY STRONG!!!!

  • Beverly Gupit
    Beverly Gupit Day ago

    Girl you made me tear up with this video. I know how you feel. 💕

  • Ismigul Assenov
    Ismigul Assenov Day ago

    After two miscarriages i know how you feel, its def a time of needing all the support you can get especially from your husband or partner... its something you’ll never forget, it really doesnt help when doctors or people say ‘now you know that you can get pregnant!’ Its the worst you can say to a person that went trough something like this... thank you for this video, its so hard to talk about this

  • Clementina1483
    Clementina1483 Day ago

    God's moments are perfect, I know it hurts (I've been there too) but don't be sad, your children will come when they have to. You're an amazing woman, don't give up! Tons of Love from Venezuela 😘🇻🇪😘🤗

  • Kelsey Flynn
    Kelsey Flynn Day ago

    God is going to bless you with something great Desi

  • Neha Assar
    Neha Assar Day ago

    Hang in there Desi. I know this is frustrating and difficult but it’s just a phase and it too will pass. Don’t give up. What is meant to be will be and you don’t have control over when things will happen. Focus on being stress free and staying centered. Surround yourself with love and happiness. Live in the moment. Sending love ❤️

  • Rebecca Hamler
    Rebecca Hamler Day ago

    You are not alone 💔

  • Celica Elicea
    Celica Elicea Day ago

    Watching you I felt like I was watching my life story. I had a miscarriage and also gave up. One day I just prayed with a necessity... I asked God for that blessing after 7 yrs he answered.I also started taking prenatals just to be healthier and prepare. Best of luck stay positive and keep having faith.

  • Suzette Rollin
    Suzette Rollin Day ago

    You are amazing ❤

  • Katie Holloway
    Katie Holloway Day ago

    Praying for you!! This made me cry because that is also one of my biggest fear and it could really happen to any of us but please don't give up hope, I think that God has a specific plan just for you and all of us and it's going to be everything you Could ever imagine and I really believe that! Thanks for sharing ❤️❤️❤️❤️

  • Michelle Quah
    Michelle Quah Day ago

    I feel you. One will never ever get over grief. You just cope. I had 2 miscarriages. Keep hope alive. Thanks for being open. It's hard.

  • Sasha Ceballos
    Sasha Ceballos Day ago

    Desi I know you’ve probably tried everything but I work in the Health field... and my patients have good success with An Exam called Hysterosalpingogram .. this is an Exam in the Radiology Department!
    Checks for your Fallopian tubes to check if they are open allowing for sperm to reach the ovaries ..
    :) -XOXO
    Snap fam

  • Pelda Gümüscü

    Desi, you truly are strong

  • Kristi-Anne Mc Auley

    Thank you Desi. What hit home the most for me was your roller coaster of emotions. Even to the point of “I’m good I’m not ready anymore”. Thank you for letting me know I’m not alone. ❤️

  • Jennifer Waudby
    Jennifer Waudby Day ago

    Girl, no one knows the pain. I hated hearing 'It's because you are thinking about it too much' I had have lost a premature baby and had 3 misscarages over 6 years. I gave up hope and was looking into adoption when I became pregnant. I now have a beautiful baby girl. My other girl friend was trying for 10 years with never falling pregnant and she has a 10 month old. No one appreciates what we have like we do.

  • Make-up Queeen
    Make-up Queeen Day ago +1

    I prayed for you!

  • Yolanda Gutiertez

    Most heartbreaking video to watch much love for you both. Best wishes.

  • casey barrett
    casey barrett Day ago

    You are so strong to get infront of a camera and express your feelings like this. Like you said everything happens for a reason and i 100% agree but i wish only but the best for you and steven the best ❤️

  • Keisha D
    Keisha D Day ago

    You are so brave to share your story Desi. I admire your strength.
    Often they say “it will happen when you least expect it” 🙏🏻 hoping it will be the case for you too.
    There is also some kind of water hole/lake in Australia that is a spiritual place and symbolises fertility, maybe something you might be interested in, some people have said it has worked for them, you never know it could be interesting to try - her about Nicole Kidman trying it?
    Thinking of you and Steven and wishing you all the best in the future. 😘❤️

  • Lluvia Guerrero
    Lluvia Guerrero Day ago

    This video truly helps

  • Um Sumayyah
    Um Sumayyah Day ago

    Sending love and prayers your way ♡

  • jaybirdswife1
    jaybirdswife1 Day ago

    You sweet thing. Big Hugs and well wishes from me to you ❤️❤️❤️

  • Krista Washington

    Desi!!! I love you guys sooo much!!! I'm sorry for all of the pain you guys have been experiencing...my Mom struggled for 6 years to get pregnant with me.. She said it was the longest, hardest 6 years of her life..Just know that we are all here for you and are supporting you and Steven in every way possible!! Xoxoxo

  • Rachel Armstrong

    so much love for you desi!

  • Monique D
    Monique D Day ago

    ❤️

  • Donata Pospišil

    Hello! First of all, I must say that you are amazing and I love your videos soooooo much. Second please try tee from lady’s mantle. It help me and so many women I know. Send you lots of love,hope and good wishes.

  • Pessie majiwa
    Pessie majiwa Day ago

    Hi Desi, i don't even know you, i'm a new subscriber..but watching this video has made me feel this deep sympathy for you, i'm praying for you and i believe and i'm sure you will conceive because we are serving a living God, i pray this in Jesus name amen. Lots of hugs

  • Anitta Koivisto
    Anitta Koivisto 2 days ago

    You are still so young and you are in good hands now. Your specialist will figure out your period and ovulation problems if you have any, so that's not the problem. Then there is multiple ways to help the pregnancy to begin and to support it. I hope you don't stress too much and hopefully you have the energy to stay positive ❤ You will be pregnant again and you will have a child and family one day ❤.

  • Lindi Eriksen
    Lindi Eriksen 2 days ago

    Thank you for addressing fan comments in the beginning. I hope some people read this and realize they are unknowingly touching on a sensitive subject or pushing their own family dreams on their idols. Love xoxo

  • C Momtoboys
    C Momtoboys 2 days ago

    Desi- I had the same struggles getting pregnant. After years of struggle the specialist helped us and now have 3 healthy beautiful boys! They are super spaced apart!
    keep your faith and don’t give in to all negative self talk we all do when we go through this. Much 💗

  • Rachel Millington
    Rachel Millington 2 days ago

    My best friend has just fallen pregnant after being diagnosed with PCOS over 3 years ago and had been trying for a baby for 2 years with no luck except an early miscarriage. She wasn’t trying and it always happens when you least expect. Never give up hope ❤️

  • Marcie Ibbotson
    Marcie Ibbotson 2 days ago

    Keep the faith honey, believe with every ounce of yourself and I promise it will happen. I am so glad you shared your heart with us and of course now you have thousands and thousands of people praying for you. Positive thoughts, always- You will be a Momma! 🙏❤️❤️🙏

  • cendy rodriguez
    cendy rodriguez 2 days ago

    I cried like a baby watching this video because for years that was me trying and trying and i just couldnt get pregnant so i was terrified I thought i never would but you know what your right everything happens when for a reason and god knows when to give you what for so long you have wanted i did have the ovulation problem and my dr gave me the pills and i took them and took them and he had told me 6 months and when i took my last month and didnt see anything i just said i give up and decided to just forget about it it happened i was pregnant and it was the most amazing feeling in the world i love you so much and dont worry god know when the time is right

  • Ryley Adams
    Ryley Adams 2 days ago

    I proclaim, in Jesus's name, a blessing for you and your family!!