How I Met My Abusive (ex) Boyfriend

  • Published on Sep 7, 2018
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  • illymation
    illymation  Year ago +30085

    Hey guys! Thank you for making it through that video and hearing my story on this. Considering this content and the kind of awful people it can attract, I wanna start something good in my comments section with your help! *If you see a comment that’s super kind, helpful, anything awesome, comment on that comment with a heart ❤️ emoji.* That way, youtube will push it to the top. If enough people give love to one another, maybe we can drown out the hate. 😄
    I expect there will be a lot of valid questions. A lot of those I can assure you I’ll get to in the next videos. But here are some answers for now.
    *Why did you make this video? It’s [insert your opinion here]*
    If I have a platform, if I have a voice, if people are watching and listening to me, I want to use this channel to highlight the things I wish I knew to avoid when I was your age. I want to warn others against awful people like the guy in this video. Know the red flags. Listen to your friends and family. It really can happen to anyone.
    *“Why wait? Quit cliffhanging! Tell us everything!”*
    This is already a 10 minute video that took over a month to do! I’m also in college full time. I reaaaallly wanted to do a tell-all, believe me. There’s just so much to tell, and I am ITCHING to get this done.
    *“Why didn’t you go to the police?”*
    1. You can’t call the cops on someone being mean to you on the internet.
    2. *I did!* (I’ll get into that in the next video) but understand, I, the detective, my lawyer, we all need to be able to prove who sent the messages. The messages themselves aren’t enough. If brought to court, he could argue “oh my sister sent that not me” and... we can’t prove otherwise. And if you don’t believe this, idk what to tell you. I went to the police and this is what they told me.
    3. *We tried* proving otherwise by getting his confession, and he denied it all of course. He never thought he did anything wrong in the first place.
    4. Even though he coerced me into sending pictures, I could still go to jail for “soliciting” CP. Again, we can’t prove HE coerced me. But we can prove that’s me who sent them. “WAIT THATS NOT FAIR-!” Yup. Even though I was coerced, I was pressured, I was threatened... I did something that can be proven, and he did something that can’t be proven. So going to court could possibly get ME jailed. This is what people mean when they say “the system protects criminals.” 🙃
    *”Why didn’t you include the messages where [this this that that whatever]”*
    I just don’t have the messages. Here’s the approximate breakdown of our conversation history:
    - 80% Skype
    - Of that 80%, half was talking out loud (therefore no paper trail)
    - Blocking people on Skype in 2015 deletes your conversation history. I know there’s a way to mine it out of your computer somehow, but I didn’t know this back then, and I no longer own that computer.
    - 10% texting (This happened in 2015. It is 2018. I’ve gone through 2 new phones, one of which was stolen fml)
    - 10% other - google hangouts, Facebook, tumblr, etc.
    *”This happens to men/boys too.”*
    Yeah, and water is wet. Me talking about my experiences doesn’t negate others. *The only story I can tell is my own.* Why would I talk about someone else, or I guess pretend to be a boy and tell this story, if that’s what you want? I don’t know that experience or how it feels. I only know mine, and that’s why I shared it. The links I’ve provided are inclusive of all people and children, and some show breakdowns by gender. *If you’re concerned about other people and their stories, PLEASE go find them and support them.* Don’t sit in my comments section telling me to do that. They obviously need YOUR help if you want to give that. *Claiming I’m “ignoring” others by just telling my story is ignorant and a waste of the kind heart you claim to have.*
    *“Did he do anything worse?”*
    Unfortunately yes. Statutory r***. And I went to the police about it. We tried getting security camera footage but the place where it happened didn’t have cameras installed until a year after the incident took place. All we could try to pin him on was coercion to entice, but again, we couldn’t get him to confess. So, he got away with it.
    *”you’re lying / you’re doing this for attention / this is fake / that’s photoshopped / if this really happened you’d / etc”*
    Did you know 2% of American adults think the Earth is flat? With a population of 326,766,748, that’s 6.5 million dumbasses walking amongst us. With numbers like that, who am I to expect anyone watching this video to believe anything concrete?
    After getting out of this relationship, I was diagnosed with major depression, anxiety, I’ve struggled with self harm since being with him and I am prone to relapsing, and I have had symptoms of PTSD (recurring vivid nightmares, flashbacks, irrational fears). Making this video put me in an awful place mentally for a month or so, which I anticipated and dealt with along the way. I do not have the emotional energy or even a care in the world to “debate” you in the comment section. But go off, more comments actually benefits my channel. (Thanks for your support! 😊😊😊😊)
    Thank you guys so much and let me know if you’d like to see part two or something a little more light hearted.

    • Angel Amy
      Angel Amy Month ago

      My name is Lilly. C:

    • Lisa Griffith
      Lisa Griffith Month ago

      Get a ugly picture of the internet and sent it to him/her he’ll think your ugly and leave you alone

    • Mossimo Reynolds
      Mossimo Reynolds 2 months ago

      I have a question. Have you seen other TVclip animators with other tragic problems?

    • Randy Richmond III
      Randy Richmond III 2 months ago

      @HolsappleArt Studios it takes a real man to do what you did

    • Talia R Lahn
      Talia R Lahn 2 months ago

      hey illy, I hate to bother you, and I completely believe you, but could you explain how Haris was 21 when you were 15 when you said at the beginning of the video you said you were 13 when he was 17? Sorry just as a perfectionist that confused me. I promise I believe you, and I'm sure there's an explanation for it because as a person who also struggled with abuse I have some memory loss from that time. but if you or someone else could explain I would greatly appreciate it

  • MoonQueen 18
    MoonQueen 18 6 minutes ago

    Frick you Harris

  • Joy Kitten Loves Cats
    Joy Kitten Loves Cats 3 hours ago


  • fireblast glicht
    fireblast glicht 5 hours ago

    I'm in a relationship with 17 year old guy and I'm 11 were planning to meet up in rl he lives in Asia and I live in Britain he keeps on calling me hot,cute, and pretty

  • Will Huey
    Will Huey 9 hours ago

    how dare that bastard use link from legend of zelda as his icon

  • the King's and queens of legends 123

    I dated a pedo GIRL GOOOOO😭😭😆

  • Not Stacey Dawson
    Not Stacey Dawson 14 hours ago +1

    “I was 13, like most of you watching this”
    Me, a 17 year old glueing on fake nails: “i’m a trash person”

  • Silent Super
    Silent Super 15 hours ago

    *harry potter fan fic*

  • Shush
    Shush 16 hours ago

    he deserves suicide for that.

  • Luxis Land
    Luxis Land 17 hours ago

    The worst thing... is that have an link icon... :(
    (im not a pedophile,but... why a Link Icon???)

  • Ghostface868
    Ghostface868 19 hours ago

    You are loved by us all illy ❤️🤗

  • fire blaze
    fire blaze Day ago

    If i were you i would flip the table and say ima do suicide then if he is gullible to belive you do what he did to you if he says he doesn't care that ur doing suicide then you got a reason to leave him

  • The Dreadfulrelic94's Channel

    Im here for da chaos!

  • Abryanna Reynoso
    Abryanna Reynoso Day ago +1

    People like Harris should die

  • Birb Birb • • • • • • • • • •

    If it makes you feel any better Elvis Presley married a 14 year old.

  • Sleepy Panda
    Sleepy Panda Day ago

    “Kovu from Lion King 2!”

    Honestly, same

  • Anthony Uballe
    Anthony Uballe Day ago

    It was time for Thomas to leave he had seen e v e r y t h i n g

  • Quickfirefly
    Quickfirefly Day ago

    dang, that sounds terrifying... glad I'm gonna turn 12 this year so I now all the red flags

  • Maniki neko
    Maniki neko Day ago +1

    I feel so sorry for you...

  • Theweirdones ._.
    Theweirdones ._. 2 days ago

    I'm so sorry u had to go through this I hope haris goes and eat cow shit and gets arrested

  • Meleny Flores
    Meleny Flores 2 days ago

    You be your own self

  • Joey Smith
    Joey Smith 2 days ago

    I was abused as a child. Iwas chocked and thrown

  • NavHit
    NavHit 2 days ago

    I read the tittle as "how me wet"

  • Keith byrne
    Keith byrne 2 days ago +1


  • FlyingDemon_YT
    FlyingDemon_YT 2 days ago

    I feel bad for u but u are just saying girls are affected by this shit but boys can get affected too

  • Keith byrne
    Keith byrne 2 days ago +1

    How did you meet HE USED FAKE ID

  • OsthiRzuhayer 08
    OsthiRzuhayer 08 2 days ago

    3:53 at 13 you cannot take the blame for the death of someone??!!
    I’m 11 and i want to brutally kill people

    Slowly and painfully

    Humanity sucks

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  • Yasneiry reyes
    Yasneiry reyes 3 days ago

    Am 12 going to be 13

    TheARMY I LOVE BTS 3 days ago

    So...she gave this dude her address!?

    X WEAPON 3 days ago

    Then why didnt you tell your parents or the police then you wouldv'e been alone

    • Galaxy kitten 75
      Galaxy kitten 75 3 days ago +1

      X WEAPON you’re so flipping stupid Watch the next episode

  • KittiKat Kreations
    KittiKat Kreations 3 days ago

    Have you contacted the police? Illy please tell me

  • Sarah Lefebvre
    Sarah Lefebvre 3 days ago


  • marcimarc 51
    marcimarc 51 3 days ago +1

    Age is just a number
    Your body is just another TARGET

  • waffle king
    waffle king 4 days ago +3

    The same thing is happening to me I'm only 12 years old but I have been raped and threatened by a 24 year old boy. How do I leave

    • screenslayer 98
      screenslayer 98 3 days ago +2

      Talk to someone you trust i had a close friend who was going through the same thing they trusted me enough to talk to me i quickly took her to the councilors office at are school she called the cops and got him arrested she is ok now but im just happy she told me so this didnt go any farther

    • Glexie
      Glexie 3 days ago +2

      Contact a help line or a family member, you can get through this I promise ♡

  • Cool Drawz
    Cool Drawz 4 days ago +1

    Oh my god. That's my only comment. Oh my god

  • Google Gaming
    Google Gaming 4 days ago +1

    Age is just a number
    Hentai is just a pleasure
    Suicide is just a bunch of letters

  • Andrew Hine
    Andrew Hine 4 days ago +1

    I feel so sorry for you I am 11 in middle school like you were at the time

  • Susan animates
    Susan animates 4 days ago

    That happened to me before when I was 13 this guy in India did the same thing telling me that his girlfriend cheated on him so I believed him but then things got suspicious he would call me his wife and it was weird then I told my aunt and she said block him and I did and never heard from him again and he was also 17

  • June Paolo Carabeo
    June Paolo Carabeo 4 days ago

    I would say he is a Indian panini

    JONNY QUICK 4 days ago +2

    "I was a kid" "I was thirteen" "I was an IDIOT"

  • Iceykittengacha
    Iceykittengacha 4 days ago

    Guess what IM TEN 10

  • The Blue K
    The Blue K 4 days ago


  • Andrea !!
    Andrea !! 4 days ago +1


  • honey demon
    honey demon 4 days ago

    That happened to me just he was the one sending me vids that I wound not want to see and I am 9

  • Rebecca Reacts
    Rebecca Reacts 4 days ago

    "I was young,I was 13!"
    If you young as a 13-year-old I'm a frickin baby! I'm only 10,10!!!!!!!

    Also F your privacy!Exactly what I feel!F your privacy!*chuckles cause I so agree but it hurts*

    Also "Age is just a number!
    😤You know what is also a number?
    911 or the number I'm calling on the person who I have to say is " F your privacy!"

  • Shibe Fren
    Shibe Fren 4 days ago +1

    I wasn’t stupid, I was 13.

  • Jordan Stripes
    Jordan Stripes 4 days ago

    thank you.. for telling the story .. this.. helped . I know what it’s like I’m sorry

  • Amber Hall
    Amber Hall 4 days ago

    Keep a freaking sock with butter in it. Go I-Carly style

  • GMC Clips
    GMC Clips 4 days ago


  • Josette Ernes
    Josette Ernes 4 days ago +1

    harris is not a nice guy.
    privacy is privacy.

  • Tyler cassidy
    Tyler cassidy 4 days ago

    O my god, Harris should burn in hell

  • Gabriel 9193
    Gabriel 9193 5 days ago +1

    I am younger, I’m 10. T E N.

  • Simon Cobb
    Simon Cobb 5 days ago +4

    “Where like the Romeo and Juliet ok”
    Ummm Juliet is 13 and Romeo is supposed to be 16 sooooooo a fitting complement

  • BroBoo Gameing
    BroBoo Gameing 5 days ago


  • Susana Gonzalez
    Susana Gonzalez 5 days ago

    Yeah ok im 12

  • Cynthia Thrasher
    Cynthia Thrasher 5 days ago

    Oml I live in Pittsburgh

  • Overwatch King
    Overwatch King 5 days ago

    Age is just a number 911 is a number too

  • Phenomenal A.S.A
    Phenomenal A.S.A 5 days ago

    I was so close for this to happen to me. Basically. I maybe exaggerating. I was on this social media once- Likee- and there was this guy who said if i followed him, he would follow me. So he did. Then, he began to send me texts and called me darling, and said he liked me, and called me sexy. So i checked out his page. He was a 35 year old guy. More that half of my age. Living in South Asia. I was so happy when he was in another continent then me, but i was scared that i was almost *friends* with this guy, because he was so ‘nice.’ I removed him straight away, and told everyone who he was. I’m glad i was able to remove him from my life.